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watched The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy with Jared last nite.
the movie was hilarious! a self-mockery at reality of life, explaining human life from physics terms..
arthur woke up to one morning where everything went wrong,
realizes his best friend is an alien and...
planet Earth was about to be destroyed to make way for an inter-galatic highway!!!
Marvin the robot with 'genuine person personality; (GPP) was so lovable!!!

thoroughly enjoyable! it was a wonderful nite =) thanks for everything Jared.
the movie adapted from the novel by Adam Douglas.
i read the novel back in 2000. well.. the movie was way easier to understand.
the novel was quite a.... mind boggling physics-mathematics text.
nway, there'll be a sequel!
The HitchHiker's Guide to the Restaurant At The End of the Universe! yay!

on the down side... as i mentioned before,
Jared does tell his ex-girlfriend about me, him and us.
he does tell her that he is going out for dinner with me etc.
he also told her our past and the present.
presently we are just normal friends, we share everything. happy or sad.
then Joshua said "and have you thought that it might have led to their break up?"

Josh thinks that perhaps it's because Jared and i are quite close friends;
his girlfriend may not have liked it;
and on top of that, Jared is someone who doesn't put effort into maintaining a relationship.
perhaps one of the reasons they broke up was because of us.
i have never thought of it that way. it being one of those small issues that break out.

Joshua thinks that i am going down the same path Jared took.
i don't put in effort into maintaining the relationship. i am insensitive.
i am still going out with Jared.
last nite, was the first time i went out with Jared without telling Joshua...
coz the nite before, he kicked a big fuss regarding me meeting Jared etc etc.
less than 24 hrs, i met Jared without telling him.
ok, my fault. oh so insentitive thatr i hurt his feelings.

Josh now thinks that he cannot trust me. the sacred trust is broken.
he doesn't know when i will go out with Jared behind his back,
or what i do with Jared when we are out. just can't trust me anymore.

Josh will like me to stop seeing Jared for awhile out of respect for him.
Josh no longer meets his female friends too.
but i did not ask him to do that! he can meet his female friends if he wants to!
i am not stopping him! it's a personal freedom.
the thing is, i am someone who guards my personal freedom and privacy very fiercely.
i have had enough of boyfriends who control what i do, where i go, who i go out with etc!
those people are jus low in self confident, high in suspicion and simply,
compulsive obsessive control freaks!

this is MY life. MY OWN LIFE. i have the freedom to go out with whoever i please.
call me stubborn but i treasure my friends. every single one of them.
i will let you know if i am going out with Jared. you can take my word for it.
but you have no reason to stop me from meeting him.


the truth is, i don't know what to say or to do now.

posted by Veen @ 11:40